Yes, because I'm bored like that.

Got this from somewhere somewhere, so let's see.

My personality:

· I’m loud. 

· I’m obnoxious.

· I’m sarcastic.

· I’m cocky.

· I cry easily.

· I have a bad temper.

· For the most part I don’t like people.

· I’m easy to get along with.

· I have more enemies than friends.

· I’ve smoked weed.

· I drink coffee.

· I clean my room daily.

My appearance:

· I wear makeup. 

· I wear a piece of jewelery at all times.

· I wear contacts.

· I wear glasses.

· I change my hair colour often.

· I straighten my hair often.

· I have a piercing.

Relationships:

· I’m in a relationship now.

· I’m forever alone :L

· I have a crush

· I’m always scared of being hurt.

· An ex has physically abused me at least once.

· I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.

· I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.

· I’ve been in love more than two times.

· I believe in love at first sight.

· I believe lust is more important than love.

Friendships:

· I have at least five friends.

· I’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend.

· I’ve beaten up a friend.

· I’ve been in a serious fight with a friend.

· I can trust at least five people with my life.

Experiences:

· I’ve been on a plane.

· I’ve been on a train.

· Someone close to me has died.

· I’ve taken a taxi.

· I’ve taken a city bus.

· I’ve taken a school bus.

· I’ve gone bungee jumping.

· I’ve made a speech.

· I’ve been in some sort of club.

· I’ve won an award.

· I’ve spent 24 hours on the computer straight.

· I’ve been in a physical fight.

Music:

· I listen to R&B.

· I listen to country.

· I listen to pop.

· I listen to techno.

· I listen to rock.

· I’m one of those people who play songs repeatedy until I hate it.

· I hate the radio.

· I love music

· I download music.

· I buy CD’s.

Television:

· I spend at least six hours a day watching television.

· I watch soap operas daily.

· I’m in love with Days Of Our Lives.

· I’ve seen and liked the O.C.

· I’ve seen and liked One Tree Hill.

· I’ve seen and like Americas Next Top Model

· I’ve seen and like Popular.

· I’ve seen and like 24.

· I’ve seen and liked CSI.

· I’ve seen and like Everwood.

Family Life:

· I get along with both of my parents.

· My biological parents are still together.

· I have at least one brother.

· I have at least one sister.

· I have at least one step brother/sister.

· I have at least one half brother/sister.

· I’ve been kicked out of the house.

· I’ve sworn at my parents.

· I’ve made my parents cry.

· I’ve lied to my parents.

· I’ve lied to my parents about where I am.

· I’ve lied to my parents about what I’m doing.

· I’ve lied to my parents so I’d be allowed out.

· I’ve been grounded.

· I’ve walked out while grounded.

Hair:

· I’ve been brown. 

· I’ve had streaks.

· I’ve cut my hair in the past year.

· I’ve dyed my hair in the past year.

· I’ve been blonde.

· I have black.

· I’ve been red.

· I’ve been light brown.

· I’ve been blue/green.

· I’ve gotten my hair thinned.

· I use conditioner.

· I’ve used silk therapy.

· I’ve used hot oil treatments.

· I’ve curled my hair.

· I’ve straightened my hair.

· I’ve ironed my hair.

· I’ve plaited my hair.

School:

· I’ve yelled at a teacher.

· I’ve been suspended.

· I’ve had an in-school suspension.

· I’ve been sent to the principals office.

· I’ve walked out of class.

· I’ve skipped an entire day of school.

· I’ve skipped a whole class for a month.

· I’ve failed a test.

· I’ve cheated on a test.

· I’ve helped someone else cheat on a test.

· I’ve failed Art.

· I’ve failed P.E.

· I’ve failed Math.

· I’ve failed another class.

· A teacher has called my parents.

Pecel Ayam menangis.

By the way,

God knows how much I miss Wong Jowo right now.

And how I miss,

"Hoi, pedas gilaaaa."

"Mana ada pedas weh, tak pedas langsung."

and,

"Nak makan mana hari ni, semalam dah makan Wong Jowo."

"Kita makan Wong Jowo lah, nak?"

Well, seems like I'm bored already with those walking machines.

I secretly don't believe in matchmaking.

Yes, that just came out of nowhere.

But I don't want to talk about that today.

Or maybe I don't want to talk about that anymore. We'll see how.

The idea of waiting for love to come is just a crap now.

I'm sick of repeating the same thing, to the same people that I disgust myself to the core.

So yes, today's rambling is about comfort circle.

You know that sometimes when you see someone, let's say someone you know,

is doing fine, still able to laugh, looks happy enough,

you feel happy too you tend to overdo it,

ended up you making it as medium to feel good about yourself.

And the stupidest thing about that is,

we never realize.

Seriously, never.

Oh ya, congratulations to Kak Faiz and Abang Hairi on their engagement last Sunday. A step to beautiful marriage with bless. InsyaAllah. Amin.

Lagi apaan? Lagi mengDipa.

Like I said, people only feel it is desperately necessary to pick up what’s left right after they realized how stupid they were for letting things torn apart. I mean, come on, don’t you think it is useless? I know people make mistakes, but it is a matter of you knowing what you’re doing, or you simply don’t. Then it is appropriate to label you stupid. You should know that.

I’m not criticizing anyone, but really, gila talak is so irritating. This happened so many times in front of my eyes, obviously didn’t happen to me, but yes, I’ve been witnessing this kind of thing for a long time.

If you’ve decided to leave someone, coming back is just a waste of time. Because when it happens for the second, third, fourth time, it is no longer special, and it’s gonna leave a huge scar to both of you, if you know what I mean.

I have not yet lost my faith in relationship, no. But you know; only short-minded people think breaking up and getting back like it is normal, normal. If you think you’re gonna break up with your partner eventually, don’t start. Don’t play with your own feelings, because it’s going to numb eventually.

And yes, I’m not being defensive, but if you take a little time just to think about it, you surely will realize leaving your partner and believing you can get back to him/her just like that just make you an arrogant but stupid person. And worthless.

On the other hand, I have a huge crush on Dipa Changcut. Why, because he plays bass, and has a super straight face. Plus point, he wears braces. Hoi lah kiutnyew.

It’s all about looks when you have a crush on celebrity. Never an inner self takes place. Haih la kau cakap orang, kau pun sama je Syapaaaaaa.

On distance.

Weh, I miss everything about Kuala Lumpur and Batu Pahat, but I've found peace here in Sintok. Seriously, this is the right place for people like me.

You know, this is the perfect place to care nothing about other people except you yourself. I only know few people here except my classmates, but we don't meet often. That's good, because there's still distance.

It is good to be away from everything sometimes, as long as I keep in touch with important contacts. Not that I'm hiding from anything, but you know at certain times, all you want is space. I know that I'll get bored with this place eventually, but to face 2012, maybe its best if I just stay here and complete my studies. There's too much to face by that time, and I'm not even ready now.

About food, I'll deal with it. There's always something to eat, and to whine, I must stop.

Nah, I don't miss KL actually, I just miss my friends who live there.

Occasional random facts. Again.

People say they know about themselves, I beg to differ. Because we only realize about ourselves when there are occurrences of particular event or stuff happen, only then we know who we really are. I do know about my own interest, but I just realize about small details about myself when something happen, or something said to me, for example, my mum said the other day, that she's one type of person who's so stubborn, no one can object her decision about marrying my dad, I know that I'm just like her. That stubborn part of course. And many more.

Others usually hate black cats, I am actually obsessed with them.

I don't really fancy desserts, I'm all fine with main course.

You can never see me in sandals. I always opt for sneakers or pumps.

I get turn on easily with guys who just got back from work, wearing formal attire.

And those who wear black leather watch.

And those who have strong jaw.

I hate beards. All kinds of beards if there's any.

I love guys who read/write poems. I think they are hot.

Always moved by Indonesian Literature.

I'd like to have more friends who study abroad.

I am addicted to Facebook. I really have no life. Really.

I do have one regret that I really can't draw.

And dance, now. I used to be a dancer when I was a kid. A Javanese dancer. Alahai.

Yes, that's all for this time. Wait for the next sudden 'self-realization'.

Oh, I'd like to congratulate a dear friend of mine, Puan Wani and her husband, on her beautiful wedding almost a week ago. Even though I wasn't there to celebrate, I already stalked all the photos, and watched the video on her Facebook profile, and I knew it was super magical.

May Allah bless your marriage, love. May your future family reach the state of mawaddah, sakinah and warahmah. InsyaAllah amin.

The Twitter Series.

The thing is, I'm getting bored with Twitter. Why? There's just too much unnecessary tweets from those people. I just don't want to cause any misunderstanding, so I don't delete them la because they are my friends nanti cakap "Syapa bajet bagus" pulak.

But truthfully, no one wants to see your tweets every 2 seconds.

I tweet about stupid things too, but no, not every 2 second.

And I do tags reply with friends, but not constantly, and not all can see the tweets.

So last few days Hafidz taught me how to hide those people's tweets without them knowing it. I think its very the very brilliant I don't have to see those tweets particularly about those curahan hati , kutuk mengutuk , and other stupid things. Double bluergh.

You can use Slipstream too if you're facing the same problem like mine. But only if you use web browser. This can't be applied to those smartphone users.

And now, I am in love with Twitter again.

And if you're on Twitter too and following me obviously, you can always Slipstream me if you think I tweet too much. No hard feelings.

More kahwins

On the bright side, everyone deserves a happy ending.

Everything becomes so clear right now, clear as in everything runs smoothly as far as I am concerned.

Last few days, during Raya Haji celebration, my family and I went to my brother's future fiancee's house for 'merisik' things. Everything went well, Alhamdulillah, they are getting engaged soon.

On the same day, my cousin Lye experienced the same thing too, her future fiance and his family came to her house, also for 'merisik' thingy. And they are getting engaged too, right after my brother's engagement.

On the same day, my super best friend received a news. A good one obviously, I just can't reveal it now, because its supposed to be a secret, but I wanted to do a little teaser, but yes, gonna reveal it as soon as it is confirmed.

Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah ya Allah.

And more marriages coming along this next few days, and next year.

It would be Wani's, Nadal's, Fatin's, Awai's and insyaAllah lots more.

Marriage is a major part of religion, I am glad these people I love are moving towards completing the half part of our religion. May their marriage be blessed, may their future family become sakinah, mawaddah and warahmah. InsyaAllah.

Kahwin itu mengingatkan aku tentang manusia dan keikhlasannya, ikhlasnya melawan zina, ikhlasnya menerima tanggungan, ikhlasnya meneruskan cinta, dan ikhlasnya menjunjung kedewasaan. InsyaAllah.

Still not moving on.

I know life can be so hard at times. Especially when you have to face it all by yourself.

Admit it,

though you have more than enough people having your back,

you still have to face certain things alone.

When it comes to this part, I really hate myself, because all I could think off is how lonely I am at the moment. No matter how big or small the 'issue' related to that, you (at least I myself) still think your own hands are the best to keep your own heart in.

I don't know.

I share stuff with people. But I never let all out.

And the ones that I am keeping are basically the hardest.

And when I'm stuck with the hardest, I tend to feel

"My God, I'm all alone, no one knows how hard it is to face it alone and yada yada..."

Yeah y'all know I have issues with myself.

Its almost 2012, and I still don't know how to control my own feelings.

Stupid dum dum.

Post-related-notes :

I know everyone is getting married by next year, when I say everyone, I mean EVERYONE.

But please, stop asking me questions like when will I get a boyfriend, when is my turn to get married because you know, it won't help. And when I reply with stupid answers, don't go

"Awh, your time will come, you just have to wait patiently or you should stop being picky or you should try internet dating or bla bla..." and whatevershit, because its not funny anymore.

I don't have a choice. Please. Just stop hurting my feelings.

Non-related-notes:

I still think Beto Kusyairi is pretty damn hot with his straight face. Like gila.