Definitely a miss.

Let's talk about timing.

In my case, timing is just a super bitch. I've missed out so many opportunities that were meant to change my life, and looking back at it, only like 5% of it can be counted as my own fault.

Maybe it's a curse, maybe I have no luck at all, I don't know. 

I just have no hope left. 
And I am somehow at this point, want to stop believing that better things are gonna come at the end of the road, because reality is, everything sucks.


Things I've learned in 2012.

Yes, 2012 has passed. There's nothing much of it, but I do learned a lot of things last year. Things that I'm sure will help me to get better. Or at least to stop me from making the same mistakes again.


1. Do not let others decide things for you, especially when you're old enough to know what's good and what's bad. Learn to make decision, even if in the end it turns bad, it'll help to mature you.

2. End your one-sided love if it is no longer worth it. Having crush is a cute thing, until you realize that you'll end up crushing yourself into pieces.

3. You do need friends. But you do need some space. Take time to be on your own, make friends with non-living things. No, that's not weird, books can everyone's good friend.

4. Do not forget that marriage somehow comes with responsibilities. Get involved with it once you're really prepared.

5. Facebook can sometimes poison you.

6. Never lose weights because you want other people to accept you. I swear to God you'll have to deal with other kinds of depression that come after that.

7. Some beliefs and principles are meant to go against one another. Live with yours, and don't question others'.

8. Some older people tend to become super conservative. Respect their thoughts, but never let them affect yours, when you yourself know how to live your life. They sometimes failed to adjust what's on their mind with current situation.

9. When you reach certain age, you'll learn how to control your feelings. Seriously.

10. The last but the most important lesson I learned last year, your mum and dad are your priority. Well, sometimes you fight with them over silly things, but do know that they're the most understanding people on earth once you let them believe you're ready to rock the world.



Well for this year, I hope I can make certain changes. Whether I succeed or not, we'll talk about it next year.