Hello, we meet again.
There’s nothing
to talk about lately. Apart from how hot Kedah is, I have nothing actually to
say. My dissertation stuff is stressing me out. Too little time to finish
everything, I totally can die like this.
Oh yes, one
thing. I really wish I didn’t grow up. Being a grownup is tiring, really.
Responsibilities are clinging onto me. I don’t have anyone to depend on. At the
age of almost 26, I can’t depend on my parents, not anymore. I need to settle
things up by myself. Yes, I have siblings, but let’s talk about that some other
time. Acting like the oldest is yes, tiring too.
I
talked about this to Lye and Lie last two weeks, and they said, “InsyaAllah,
Tuhan tunjuk jalan nanti.” So I said to myself, “I need to believe that. I have
to believe that.”
Nevertheless,
I’m happy.
I feel happy so
many things are going to happen this year. Another loved one is getting married
this May. Then I’ll be the only one who wears different colour or pattern
whenever we have weddings, because everyone else is married, so they will wear
matching clothes.
I feel happy
because my young brother is now really an adult; he’s now an independent man. I
remember when we’re both in our early years of study period, and we both didn’t
have money, so I shared my last ringgit with him, and look at him now, he even paid
for everything.
I feel happy I
have so many cats back at home. We now have 26 kittens, mummy cats, daddy cats. Mom called me every two days just to update me
about them. I can’t wait to squeeze them.
I feel happy
strangers even smile at me now. Remember when I said I feel so isolated here,
being all alone and so on. Now people even said ‘Hi’ or ‘Bye’ to me
spontaneously. It is so weird, but I think it is hilarious.
I feel happy for
no reason actually, maybe because I've got over things already.
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